4. Things Stopped Making Sense
Things Stopped Making Sense.
Immediately after surgery it struck me odd that in recovery she was in a great deal of discomfort. At home it seemed to take an enormous amount of narcotics to ease the pain. Immediately after surgery she began apologizing for "having put me through this, but it's over now."
I explained that it may infact be over for her, but it was far from over for me. I explained that for the next six months to come I would have to relive the feelings each time she walked in, took off her clothes, and watched another man touch/manipulated my wife's breasts. I explained there were now "movies" in my mind watching him do all that had already done - with him taking her bra off one side a time, putting his hand under her breast and lifting it up... all of that was still very "present" for me even if it was "past" for her.
From February until June - everything stopped being logical. My love - the love of my life - suddenly cared about only the things she wanted. She stopped evaluating any decisions to see if they made good material sense, good marital sense, or good health sense.
Immediately after surgery it struck me odd that in recovery she was in a great deal of discomfort. At home it seemed to take an enormous amount of narcotics to ease the pain. Immediately after surgery she began apologizing for "having put me through this, but it's over now."
I explained that it may infact be over for her, but it was far from over for me. I explained that for the next six months to come I would have to relive the feelings each time she walked in, took off her clothes, and watched another man touch/manipulated my wife's breasts. I explained there were now "movies" in my mind watching him do all that had already done - with him taking her bra off one side a time, putting his hand under her breast and lifting it up... all of that was still very "present" for me even if it was "past" for her.
From February until June - everything stopped being logical. My love - the love of my life - suddenly cared about only the things she wanted. She stopped evaluating any decisions to see if they made good material sense, good marital sense, or good health sense.